Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Sea Of Madness

Year 2010 is approaching its second part. I am turning 37 soon. That is not the main concern. The main concern is the way most people in our country now ending their daily life , day in day out searching for things that they also unsure and uncertain.

Being alone without both my beloved parents have made me a person who observes more and more and try to figure out and try to put myself in other people shoes. But still, I could not find the answer.

The level of self centred and selfishness among our younger generations are increasing as we are now living in a world of materialistic. Most people judges the self esteem of a person by what he or she owns not by what he or she present. To take an example of a successful person is by the way that person portrays such as expensive vehicles, living in a mansion like house and the amount of money kept in possession no matter whether it is legal or not.

Trying to be a true Muslim, is almost an impossible tasks as most workplace are controlled by those who are 'graduated' with a contaminated Western culture. Nobody cares about what Rasulullah saw our true leader of mankind left us - Quran and Hadith. How many of us really refers to the Quran and Hadith for daily life? How many?

Who ever follows are considered as orthodox backward people who denies modernization and development. No doubt that there is still few people with 'Hati Emas' but there are discarded and usually being passed unseen by most bosses in an organization.

No respect for the elders , never consider about how others might felt are becoming common act of attitude in most workplaces. Those who are shining are normally those that lick the boss bottom and ready to step on anybody's head to be on top.

When I joined this company , I thought I can instill good value by showing my Lead by Example attitude. Instead I was totally wrong, if I start doing that job, looks like I'll be the one doing it till I become breathless. I try to put myself on everybody's shoes, doing lots of work that is beyond my capacity as a so called management level staff, but at the end nobody cares. What they see is that I am always there so , why they should bother anyway?

Being attached to Human Resources Department promises that in day-to-day life , I can't avoid facing all these people with their colourful character because they are humans not machine. Should have known better, but they said the brightest flame burns quickest so I will try to understand till I reach the time when I just do not care anymore. Everyday I am playing with all sort of madness, sadness more than happiness.

Am I at another level or am I just being to observant? Only time will tell. The cracks in the wall have grown too long, its just a matter of time.